I couldn’t weigh if 2010 is/was a good year to start with. I graduated this year, finished college which is a good thing. Got a job (with great officemates to hang out with), started having my own money, got a little independence. On a darker/lesser side, my brother got shot this year, almost lost him. My family experienced a huge emotional, mental, physical and financial downpour. I couldn’t put to words how hard and hurtful the experience was. My friend also experienced losing “something/someone” so important but she has no choice but to lose it. I also lost someone along the way and broke someone’s heart.

2010 has been good and bad at the same time. I met someone who made me so happy but I just couldn’t have him. My kuya left for Germany to be with my parents, which I am happy for but I was left “alone” for the holidays and for long, I think. I’ve been at my happiest with my friends but there are times that I don’t see them for a long time, due to conflicts. I’ve been a huge sponge to my friends, taking their every heartache, which made me too preoccupied with their problems that I forgot that I have my own dirt to fix. I also became the “small black dot in that clean paper” to my family, a hard spot to fill. I can tell much more but as I go back to the things I went through, all the happy and not-so happy moments, it makes me realize that it doesn’t make any difference. For the past years, I get to deal with the same things but only in a different and greater situations. I wanted to think that 2011 wouldn’t make any difference but in my heart, I am hoping that 2011 would bring a new start, ‘cause I needed it just as much as other people would. 

On that note, I thought (and hopefully accomplish) of a list of things that I wanted to achieve next year aka New Year’s resolution.

First, I will SAVE. I’ve been spending too much (and I’m not proud to admit that), not leaving any cent in my ATM Account every payday. Hopefully this 2011, I’ll be able to save up. I’ll TRY my very BEST to save a thousand every payday and pay my rent & phone bill on time. I will also try not to spend to much on clothes and shoes and oh! will discipline myself to call less (my phone bill’s way too high)

Next, I’ll lessen the stick-a-nic. Wouldn’t elaborate too much but people around will me will know what this is. I’ll try to lessen until I quit.

I will not be late for work and will focus on my job more. ‘Nuff said.

I will lessen the partying and will not drink too much.

I will exercise (crunches every morning plus jogging on weekends) and shed off the beer belly.

I will go to mass every Sunday. (I have been doing this eversince my kuya got into an accident)

I will try to love myself more than other people. Not to overthink  and take one thing at a time.

Lastly, I will try to do a PERSONAL RESOLUTION. This is the hardest but Im praying that I’ll be able to do it.

In a few hours time, the clock will strike 12 and 1.1.11 will come. Let us all hope for the best and may this be a different year not only for me but for everyone. I will make this a year of new beginnings, a new start and I hope you do too. 

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR. :)